“We’re Coming For You…”

This will likely be a long story, and with triggering content. Cartels, drugs, and violence.

Nineteen years ago right now, in 2000, I was dealing with the aftermath of a house fire. I lost my pets, most of my possessions, and my place to live.

Fast forward to over a year later, Spring 2001. I was still with my ex. He was freshly out of a job again, so he chose to sell weed. At one point, he was kind of given an offer he couldn’t refuse… buying weed from a Cartel, in Dallas, arranged by a middleman (friend of a friend) who lived there. I chose to get myself involved as well, driving. We did get caught eventually, right before my 24th birthday.

After we were busted, we owed the Cartel about $8,000. I saw what this Cartel did to a guy who owed them $20,000. I didn’t witness anything, but I saw the poorly cleaned crime scene. Maybe I will save the graphic details for a movie.

My ex had our only cell phone, prepaid by minutes. Random numbers started calling one day. Texas, Illinois, Minnesota… the Cartel wanted to find Mike. Maybe me too, as his girlfriend and the driver, but their focus was definitely Mike. They filled our inbox with threatening messages, saying things like, “We’re coming for you… We have guys from Chicago and Minnesota and they are coming for you…. We are getting closer….” We never responded, at least not at first.

I later found out that a friend of mine was visited by them right after we left her house one day. They beat her pregnant self up pretty good, trashed her apartment, and kicked in her big screen TV, because she didn’t have answers for them about where we were.

We were hiding out, bouncing around hotels for about a week or so. Once night at this hotel, I noticed a truck creeping through the lot real slow. I had this vibe but kept my cool. As they made the bend to leave the parking lot, I peeked out the blinds. I noted Minnesota plates and three people. The one in the middle was wearing a hat typical of Rancheros. Probably them. They never found us though.

The Cartel then told our inbox that they know when the next court date is, and they would just snipe him/us out there. Mike got real scared, and called his lawyer. What do we do about this and our safety? The lawyer called the Sheriff’s department, who called the DEA, who called us. We met with the DEA, two agents. One talked with us, and the other took our phone into their vehicle. He emerged some time later, looking rather shaken up. He said, “Oh yes. This is definitely real.”

The Cartel called AGAIN talking their BS. Mike answered this time all pissy, and basically told them to fuck off because we just talked to the DEA. Guess what? We never heard from them again.

I still won’t answer my door unless I’m expecting someone, but I feel a lot of relief knowing that specific Cartel was taken over some years ago.


Trigger Warning.

This has been a long time coming. Three and a half years ago, I told my husband I feel I should write a blog. He said do it. πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž

I started this blog By the Indigo Moon right away, but held back. I held back because it’s some hard material. Nobody wants to read about “poor me”… But then a friend in Africa pointed out that my writings, even when they get dark, are always light, or I wrap it up that way. This story does ultimately have a happy ending, so I will proceed. It seems to be tearing at my soul to hold back any longer, so it must be meant to happen. Consider yourself trigger warned, though. πŸ™πŸ˜ž

I was 19 when I met my ex, Mike. We were friends first for a few months, then I moved in with him (and his dad) right away when things advanced beyond friendship. There were red flags, but for my whatever reasons I chose to ignore them.

It was good between us for some time. Arguments, yes, but just words and not very intense. It escalated after we got our own place. For the record, I did slap him first. But ultimately I created a monster, or at least unleashed one, and we had wars fairly often. It went on for some time. There came a point when we both realized we went too far, and silently agreed never again. And we didn’t, for like a year and a half.

One night, I took his cousin Marc home after a night of fun. Marc was raised with some religion. Mike hated religion. I was somewhere inbetween. Marc and I had a talk for about a half hour that night. I told him I’m not sure about life with Mike, because I knew it was whack. He said, “Start praying. Start praying and don’t you stop.” I prayed for a sign from God about this…..

A little over 48 hours after this conversation, Mike picked me up from my bartending job, as usual. We went home to find we are homeless now because our house caught fire. 😡😡

It worked out right away. We weren’t actually homeless because we stayed with his dad again for a few months. I took it as a sign to stay with him. 😞That was January 2000.

A little over a year later, February 2001, we both were settled into jobs and a house of our own again. But then he lost his job. He was already a convicted drug felon, but he chose to get back into that game. By the time June came around, he was given an offer he couldn’t refuse, and planning to drive to Dallas. I always wanted to go there, so I talked my way into joining the adventure. That was a bunch of crazy stuff that I seriously would like to turn into a movie one day. Action and suspense. A Mexican Mafia came looking for us. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ’There’s so much to write about, but I will save some things for other, shorter blogs.

We ended up getting in trouble in August 2001. Yes, both of us. If I would have told the cops the weed was his, maybe I could have walked with no charges. NaΓ―ve at 23, I said it was both of ours. “Possession is nine-tenths of the law” is a common expression, that’s why I said that, but I likely would have been the one-tenth that was in possession but it’s not mine. Coulda-shoulda-woulda has haunted me ever since.

I wrote some about life in Mexico already. I have stated a reason why I went. That was not a lie. I always wanted to leave this country, until I did. It just isn’t the whole truth.

With having a prior conviction, Mike was looking at significant jail time. He wanted to leave the country to avoid prosecution. Although we were trying to break up with each other, he saw this whole thing as MY fault, and therefore I had to go with him. He had no license and knew no Spanish. I had a license and good Spanish skills.

We fought a lot over it. I would say no and he would throw me across the room by my throat. Ultimately, one day he put a gun to my head over this. “Where are you not going?” I told him I agree to go, but only because I’m going to do what I gotta do to get him out of my life. πŸ‘ŒπŸ˜‚

It worked, ultimately. We went to Cancun in July 2002 where along the way, he literally almost killed me. I went under. I just remember telling the black space that I must return home to my best friend, and I eventually regained consciousness. πŸ’š

We left Cancun to return to the States in December 2002 via a car ferry that went to Tampa. We got off the ferry and straight to jail, with bailjumping warrants. We were extradited to Wisconsin to face charges in January 2003. He bailed himself out and let me sit. I got my felonies attached to my name, and sat all my time and then some. Two weeks shy of a full year on a 9 month sentence. I had work release for those 9 months, though, and was able to return to my old waitress job working with my best friend.

I also started dating the man who is now my husband during that time. How amazing that he has never judged me and has fully embraced me. Even these parts he don’t want to hear. I am now and have been since: safe, loved, spoiled, and fully 100% supported and protected on every level. All I have to do these days is stay sober from alcohol and hard drugs, make some Reiki bracelets, and maybe do some card readings. Make memes and help people laugh with me and learn astrology as The Sober Astrologer. Enjoy my amazing pool and all that my new life has brought me. Amen. πŸ™

Thank you for reading. πŸ’š

Time for Business!

This has been such a weird journey. I started this blog and its Facebook page over three years ago. I had no goals in mind. Just going with the flow, and following my inner guidance.

I am building my own business doing jewelry, astrology, and card reading, and writing when I feel I have something to say. I have been wanting to offer a website and online store of my own, and am doing things that can lead to that. I recently started CBD oil and am looking to affiliate with companies to make it available to order from me.

In the meantime, I am pleased to announce affiliation with The Mystical Moon Store. They have locations in Florida, but their online store is amazing!! Crystals, sage, candles, oils, books, Tarot/Oracle cards… pretty much all the things. Check it out!

The Mystical Moon Store

Looking at the Big Picture.

My professional life, such as it is, has been a whirlwind of both chaos and amazing in the last couple years. Serious ups and downs. From losing my 5th job in seven years because of drinking… to not drinking and owning an international business. It can be said I am an international jewelry designer now, By the Indigo Moon, LLC. My astrology page, The Sober Astrologer, is reaching 1,000 likes on Facebook. There was a recent time I wanted to stop all of this, but I received strong support from people around the world asking me to keep going. Thank you. πŸ™

Looking at current transits, and looking back at the last couple years, the inconsistency makes sense. I’ve “been in business” nine months now, but I’m still $1,000 in the red. Mostly the legal fees and office set-up costs. I just haven’t got with it fully yet. I get in my own way and hold myself back. I struggle to determine my worth for astrology teachings and card readings.

Three of the four points on the chart are my natals: Mars/IC/Jupiter, Saturn/Sun, and MC. Uranus in transit completes this kite. It has been in effect for a couple years now at varying strengths. It was destined/determined by the North Node transiting Leo, and solidified by Saturn’s transit in late Sagittarius. And now I feel it being energized by this current Mars transit, approaching my MC at 29Β° Sagittarius. It’s time for me to fly. πŸ˜πŸ™

If you wish to support my work going forward, I am looking into Patreon options. Also, I have a PayPal account for donations: PayPal here.

Cheers to Three Years.

I almost forgot to acknowledge this date, February 20. It was three years ago I started this blog and my Facebook page to support it. It too was called By the Indigo Moon, like this blog. I added LLC to it last year when I obtained the status.

What a wild ride it has been the last three years. I had just lost my third job in this city due to my drinking problem. I ‘tried to quit’ but started drinking again in my binge patterns after 5 months. I had an ER visit and now have lifetime health issues due to irresponsible drinking. I lost two more jobs because of my drinking. I made the choice again Labor Day 2016 that I was done, at all costs. I haven’t had a job since then. I am on meds to help anxiety and PTSD, which I know now is the main trigger to me drinking. I was briefly off meds and relapsed once last summer. My new sober date is July 8, 2017.

Three years ago I started this blog because I wanted to write about my life, mixed with some astrology. I was soon inspired to start working with crystals, which led to Spiritual Medium classes and Reiki Mastership, and now I have my own business to make Reiki bracelets and read Oracles and Tarot.

I quickly became uninspired to write for a lot of reasons; looking back it was possibly my Neptune Square fogging over my direction. This is now finally complete. His next Retro will come very close, but it won’t exact again. It could also be that I was trying to take on the world, spreading my energy too thin. I find my head clearing. I am learning my boundaries and what I need to do moving forward.

Crystal Wisdom Oracle 2/1

ROSE QUARTZ- unconditional love

Unconditional love is the greatest gift you can give to yourself or others.”

Forgive yourself. Love and beauty approach. Loneliness is at an end. Emotional blockages dissolve. Do not accept blame. Recognize that unconditional love and friendship draw exactly the right people to you. Once you love yourself, you can give and receive love from others. Support is available in a crisis. πŸ’š

*Rose Quartz is full of unconditional love and infinite peace. It draws loving relationships to you, heals past emotional traumas, or or provides support during a crisis.

The Crystal Wisdom Healing Oracle by Judy Hall

Crystal Wisdom Oracle 1/31

TRIGONIC QUARTZ- the soul’s code

“Your soul provides everything you need for well being.”

Recognize the multidimensional depth of your own soul. Remain honest to achieve success. Reach beyond apparent reality and karma, let go of conflicts. Renegotiate soul contracts; heal soul traumas and the etheric blueprint. Expel toxins from the physical and subtle bodies to download higher-frequency spiritual energies and integrate the lightbody. πŸ’š

*Trigonics hold the secrets of the universe and rapidly expand your awareness of multidimensions. Trigonics are cosmic coding for the soul.

The Crystal Wisdom Healing Oracle by Judy Hall

Crystal Wisdom Oracle 1/30

CARNELIAN- creativity

“Sufficient vitamins and minerals support your metabolism for optimum well-being.”

Be eloquent, creative, and bold. Do not back down. Trust your intuitive perceptions. Distinction in your career lies ahead. Be a mentor. Alleviate stress, take time to play. You are a tower of strength during sorrow. Stay anchored in the present. Let go of emotional ties or outdated projects holding you back. Beware a charismatic person. πŸ’š

*Carnelian protects against “glamours” (spells), envy, and the Evil Eye. Bringing good fortune to the wearer, it prevents blood from rushing to the head to cause precipitate action.

Crystal Wisdom Oracle 1/28

RHODOCROSITE- the heart reviver

“Releasing resentment from your heart creates well-being.”

Time for a change of viewpoint! Begin to see the gifts in your experiences rather than seeing the negative effects. Check out whether what you were taught in childhood is still relevant to the person you are today. πŸ’š

*Rhodocrosite teaches the heart to assimilate painful feelings without shutting down. Dissolving denial and identifying ongoing detrimental patterns, it offers compassionate love and forgiveness. You face the truth with loving awareness.

The Crystal Wisdom Healing Oracle by Judy Hall.

Crystal Wisdom Oracle 1/27

GARNET- passion

“Finding an outlet for your passions and emotions creates well-being.”

Take action now. A mystery is solved. Have courage. There is a way out. Turn a crisis into a learning challenge. If danger approaches, stay calm-you are protected. Be emotionally honest with yourself and others. You may attract a partner for sexual healing. Make no long-term commitment, as it may fizzle out once the purpose is fulfilled. πŸ’š

*Garnet is a rejuvenating stone, believed to protect against evil and terrifying dreams and to attract love.

The Crystal Wisdom Healing Oracle by Judy Hall