The Personal Horoscopes

The word ‘horoscope’ can mean a lot of things, but it all seems to mean the same thing. How can we expect the day/week/month/year to be. If you’re reading this, chances are you’ve at least looked at one in a newspaper or magazine before. But what if it doesn’t seem to make sense for you? It is generalized. Taking 12 signs basically groups us in general, taking only one object into account with the current skies.

To get the best possible horoscope for yourself, the individual, we need your location and time of birth, in addition to the date. Why is time important? You know there are 12 days a year when the Sun changes signs. I was born on one of them. Four hours later I would have a different Sun sign. The Moon changes signs every 2.5 days. For example, there is a big difference between Cancer Moon and Leo Moon. Time matters.

The biggest reason time matters is the Ascendant, or rising sign. This changes every two hours! The Ascendant is where the chart begins, the 1st house. I have an astro-twin friend, meaning we were born the exact same day, about 9 hours apart. We share Sun and all the planetary placements. Her Moon is only 5° away, but in transits that matters. The big difference of our charts is she has Scorpio rising. She was born midday when her Leo Sun was high in the sky. I am Aries rising. I was born right after sunset. This places her Sun in the 10th house, where mine is in the 6th. There are many, many things different about us, but we still are similar in some ways. What resonates for her may not for me, and vice versa. Time definitely matters.

When you have your chart made with the time included, there are a few ways to look at a horoscope for yourself. You. Not the other millions of Leos or whichever Sun sign. The Solar Return looks at the moment the Sun Returns to the natal position of your chart. It can be the day before, day of, or day after your birthday. You can look at this chart independently, and also compare it to your natal or progressed charts to see what kind of year you can expect. You can play with dates to see the years before.

To condense it down to monthly instead, you can make a Lunar Return chart. This looks at the position of the Moon each month when it Returns to your natal position. (This will end up being different from my friend’s.)

This is my upcoming Lunar Return, to be exact a little over three hours from the time of this writing. The almost-full moon is coming into its orb, the degrees of difference between two aspects. 11th house Moon here in this chart, so perhaps my 11th house themes of friends and network will be highlighted. Sun and Mars in the 6th, active month. Supportive of starting my business. Pluto in the 1st maybe there will be a fundamental transformation. Jupiter at his station point in the 9th. Fuel for expansion in my 9th house themes. Mercury in the 5th suggests my communication will be expressed creatively. Venus on the IC maybe I will work to make the things close to my heart more beautiful. And you gotta love a Capricorn Ascendant when you need to handle business.

Like I said, I can apply this also to my natal and progressed charts for further insights, like a typical transit chart. That would be a whole ‘nother post, so maybe it’s better to leave off here. Thank you for reading. 💚

As Life Progresses…

Astrology is pretty much a never-ending study. Sun sign astrology is increasingly a big part of the mainstream, but actually the rabbit hole goes deep. We can learn about birth charts, Moon signs, rising signs, and all the planets, points, and angles that make us individual people. 

Once we have a good grasp on the chart and all it contains, we can learn about transits. Transits are what the sky map looks like right now. Also if we place this sky map onto our chart, we see how the planets are transiting ours at the current moment, or any moment. This is how horoscopes are crafted. I love to play with dates and see the astrology in action in my life. Now I have progressed on to… Progressions. The progressed chart. 

Think of your natal chart like your Self. Your naked body as you came into this world. Nothing will ever change about this, and everything comes back to this. The progressed chart is like the clothes you put on. They change over time, and seem to represent the evolution of our personalities. The calculation of the progressed chart is generally speaking a day for a year, to progress the chart one day for each year of your life. I am currently 39, so the progressed chart is ran for 39 days after I was born. Obviously the change isn’t only an immediate, once-a-year event, but rather little by little every day. So it is further broken down to four minutes each day. My progressed chart from yesterday is ran for four minutes earlier than today’s chart. Make sense? I use the astro dot com site to see the progressed charts.

This is my progressed chart for the date of this writing. The outer planets haven’t moved much from my natal placements. Other than Mercury, all the personal planets have changed signs. I can see their effects in my life. My Leo Sun may be a little more peaceful and fair having progressed into Libra, for example. My progressed Ascendant has been Gemini for the last two years. I am still very much Aries rising, but now with a Gemini twist.

The Moon spends about 2.5 days in each sign. As reflected in the progressed chart, the Moon spends about 2.5 years in each sign. Day for a year, remember? Two days ago, my progressed Moon entered Gemini. I can expect myself to be more Gemini in my feelings in the next couple years. I can also compare the progressed to my natal to see potential stressful times. The last few months saw my progressed Taurus Moon in square to my natal Leo Saturn and Sun, so that wasn’t always fun.

I like Gemini energy, so I am excited for this cycle. Especially once progressed Moon crosses into my progressed 1st house in August. If you would like to learn more, come find me on Facebook. 💚

One Step Closer

I legally incorporated my business two weeks ago, the day of the Scorpio Full Moon. We held off opening our business bank account for various reasons. We opened it today, and I will just thank the Universe, for once again validating astrology in my life…

This is the chart for around the time we went to the bank. The Moon has moved on now, but at that time was still in Leo… therefore locked into this beautiful Kite. It also makes sense to have done it now, with the Moon waxing, as opposed to waning as it would have been had we done it right away. Also, Mercury and Pluto just exacted their trine, and with my Mercury make a Grand Trine in effect now for only a couple days.

I’ve wrote about this Kite before, and what it means for me and my Natal chart. With my Mars, IC/MC, Jupiter, Saturn, and Sun involved, my Kite has flown just a little higher. I’m one step closer. 😍🙏

My Saturn Return

I am absolutely stunned right now, that once again astrology has been verified in my life. 

I looked into the Saturn activity in 2007, as my Saturn is 21°39 Leo. Curious what the infamous Saturn Return meant for me. I found there was a Retro period over this placement. First pass was early October 2006. It wasn’t so much of a deal. The Retro pass was February 11, 2007. My beloved Chicago Bears lost the Super Bowl only one week earlier, but otherwise life was okay. I went forward to see which date Saturn Returned for the last time…

June 23, 2007. That was my best friend’s 21st birthday. Long story short, he and I kinda drifted apart for a bit, to the point I wondered where I even stood anymore. That day he was leaving for an adventure to California, so I wanted to clear the air before he left. We quickly and effectively sorted the misunderstanding. THAT DAY. Of my Saturn Return!!! We have had no issues since, and celebrate 15 years together now this year. 💚

The Waiting Game…

A lot has changed in a short time. I last wrote about my beautiful transiting kite, lasting most of the rest of the year. It was almost like an affirmation; an intention. 

Since then, I got such good response from the bracelet I made. Friends commissioned me to make them one. I did, specific to each person. They love it so much I’ve decided to try this seriously, Reiki jewelry. A perfect way to create income from home, while I write when inspired. It is going over so well that my husband and I have decided to look into making it a fully legit business. We have talked to our accountant. She recommended her attorney. ….And now we wait.

Why wait? Mercury Retrograde. It is advised to not sign documents during this time. We can also extend that to opening a separate bank account. I feel so impatient, as is he. But it is only a week and a half. Just frustrating. In the meantime, I can work on building an inventory, and research things I need to know. Wholesale costs, etsy, PayPal, shipping…  

I have also very much increased activity on my Facebook page, By the Indigo Moon. I feel I have truly found purpose for once in my life, to help people learn about astrology and crystal healing. I also add some Oracle/Tarot, random humor, general positivity and spirituality. If you would like to learn these things, come fly with me there. 💚💚

High Flying Kite…Why Saturn Retrograde can be a blessing.

I spoke before about following Moon transits in daily life. But all planets matter. They all affect us somehow. Sometimes it is good to step back and look at the whole picture. Your whole chart. Especially when major transits happen, like a Saturn Retrograde.

The outer planets move slow, so their effect is long-term, but often profound. Sometimes planets line up in a stressful aspect to your chart. Other times planets are very supportive. I would say at those times, “Your chart is lit up like Christmas.” I will use some of my personal natal chart right now, mixed with the relevant transits, to illustrate.

I have my (chart ruler) Mars at 24° Gemini. Because he rules my chart, I am especially sensitive to his transits and/or transits to his position. I have my natal Saturn at 21° and Sun 29°, both Leo.

Uranus is transiting my 1st house, at 24° Aries. Trine my Sun and Saturn, and sextile my Mars. He will soon enter his Shadow period, so he will come back to this degree in this year’s Retrograde. He won’t exit the shadow after Retro for another year, so his effects for me will be a while after that. He is totally, slowly, transforming my 1st house themes and will be for a few more years.

Saturn has officially went Retro, but this time I am NOT afraid. I was beat up in his last two Retros. This time is different. This time he blesses me. Because he is trine with transiting Aries, he now supports me lovingly as I make these changes in both my 1st house and the 9th house themes he himself is covering. He is also trine with my Sun currently, and his Retro will take him back to station in trine with my Saturn in August. He will then retrace his steps and won’t come out of Shadow (back to this point) until December. He will be at full steam then, so he will quickly exact the trine to my Sun and move on to Capricorn. All these trines together (Aries/Leo/Sagittarius) compose a Grand Trine. The triangles you see in the illustration.

Transiting Saturn is also in opposition with my Mars. Mars position is about halfway through Saturn’s Retro degrees, so I will feel this throughout. Oppositions can be good or bad. This time I think it is good. My Mars is sextile natally with Saturn and Sun, and is also sextile with transiting Uranus. This makes the kite formation. My Mars is in my 3rd house, so those themes are changing.

I don’t know where these winds will carry me. Uranus can be unpredictable. But I feel I have finally found something to be passionate for, and that Saturn will support whatever comes my way.

Because Why Not Do It All?

I haven’t written lately. Not because there hasn’t been anything to write about, but rather because I have so much I could write about. Life. Sobriety. Crystals. Astrology. I have put enormous pressure on myself to choose a focus. Even a primary focus. But I had a shift lately, as they say. I realize I could do it all. So, why not?

A couple years ago, I compulsively bought several types of stone beads. I love crystal therapy, and wanted to make jewelry. But as usual, I hit a creative block and they sat in the basement. Until yesterday. I reunited with my favorite Reiki classmate. We talked astrology, and he taught me how to make bracelets. 

*The color is modified by Instagram. The stones I used are blue apatite, goldstone, howlite skulls, and lava stones. 

I put essential oil on the lava stone. It soaks up the oil for easy, on-the-go diffusion. It wears off in a couple days, then I can do it again and change the scent if I choose.

I am a Reiki Master, so I infused the bracelet with Reiki. It feels empowering. I am inspired, for the first time maybe ever. I can’t wait to see what more I will create. Because why not do it all.💚

Timing is Everything.

I have read a lot about astrological timing. Think about it, how many ancient cultures have learned to live life by the astronomy. The study of how it applies to us individually (and collectively) is called, Astrology. There is much I have yet to learn, but I am learning to apply it to my own life.

I water my plants only when the Moon is in a Water sign (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces) or Earth sign (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn). Never Fire, especially not fertilizing because it can burn the roots. Never Air, because it could cause too much air to affect the roots. It has worked for almost two years now.

I’m about to get a haircut and color. It is the perfect time for it to be bold (Aquarius Sun), well liked (Leo Moon), and grow faster (still between New and Full Moons). At Full Moon it is the perfect way to actually cut something out of life, and this can help emotionally.

There are so many ways you can use Astrology to benefit your life. From romance to finding a new job. When you learn your birth chart, you can also learn how to time the planets to maximize yourself. 

Lunar Blessings to you! 💚

The Cusp is an Illusion.

If your birthday is between the 19-24th of the month, you have probably heard you were born on the cusp. I sure have, as I was born on the 22nd. It is said that we have a blend of the two energies. I bought into it, because I could see what they were saying. A Leo/Virgo. 

But then I really started learning astrology. I no longer buy into the cusp theory. I get the physicality behind it. There is a brief period where the planet crosses the plane (cusp) and is kinda straddling the two signs. I can admit that. So maybe the last degree and the first degree, but…

When learning astrology, it is said that the very first and very last degree of a sign are the strongest. The sign begins at 0°00 and is known as Critical degrees, the purest form of the sign. The sign ends at 29°59. The 29th degree is known as Anaretic. It is explained like the sign is strongest there, and trying to squeeze every ounce left before it moves on. To me, this goes against the cusp theory. It is either one sign or the next.

So why do I feel the blend of energies then?

We are not just our Sun signs. We are a blend of all the signs to some extent. When our other planets and points are placed in signs different than our Sun our energies reflect this. 

The planets Mercury and Venus are inside Earth’s orbit so long story short they stay real close with the Sun in the charts. They can only be so far away so they are often found in your Sun’s sign, the one before, or the one after. 

The planet Mercury is said to influence mental functions/communications. I have my Mercury strongly placed in Virgo. This explains why I have Virgo tendencies. I am very much a Leo on the surface (Sun) who thinks and communicates (Mercury) like a Virgo.

Astrology goes deep. It really does. But it makes for great life-long learning and awareness. If I were born just four hours later I would then be a Virgo. But I’m not. I’m definitely Leo. *with Virgo tendencies. 😉

Living Out Loud

I can be bold. Obnoxious even, when it comes to sports especially. I toe the line of playful banter, or not so playful. I openly obsess over Mexico. I gush over my kitties and my beautiful home. But I often hold back, as well.

All my life I have felt so insecure. They say you can’t miss what you never had, but there is nothing that could replace Daddy’s love. I’ve never felt that, so I’ve often felt out of place in the world. Ashamed and afraid. Even at the age of 39.

The answer to life’s problems is definitely not at the bottom of any bottle. I’ve searched many. It has been 22 weeks now since my last binge.

Every one of us is different, and we need to do what is best for ourselves. I have chosen to do this recovery by myself. As in, without rehab or therapy of any kind. I have ‘graduated’ from one program already, but obviously it did not do what I really needed to change at the time. I have to say it did give me some tools and awareness to ultimately face this, fourteen years later. I have my own program.

My main trigger to relapse is anxiety. I am aware of that. I am working to eliminate or at least manage the anxiety so it doesn’t consume me. I researched vitamins and supplements, for both anxiety and to hopefully rebuild my poor liver. I have been faithful in this regime for almost five months now. Writing is also helping. I have hobbies like astrology, sports, and swimming.

My problem with traditional therapy is that I cannot allow myself to connect easily. Counselors have actually given up on me. I just cannot fully trust someone when I was forsaken before I was ever born. I am married to the most wonderfully supportive, understanding man. I have come a long way in my relationship with him in my self-worth department but maybe I still kind of hold back in some ways. I have friends and close friends. Different people see different sides or layers of me.

I have to be accountable in my recovery. Accountability was a HUGE deal in my program. Personal accountability. “I language.” That aspect of the classes has helped me tremendously in life. I made it part of who I am and have always carried it with me. Accountability is a big part of AA or other programs as well. I am accountable to my husband and my best friend, who is also fighting this battle 400 miles away.

Social media has really come into life since I was in that program, and it truly could be the most helpful tool in my recovery. Being able to connect, instantly, around the world. It is that connection I crave, that I need. I was never Daddy’s girl, though my husband does spoil me entirely now. I stay home these days. I am focusing on my recovery. My husband works, but is not always immediately accessible when anxiety strikes. My close friends also have jobs, families, or obligations.

Feeling connection helps me feel purpose. As a fatherless daughter I struggle with that often. Like the quote attributed to John Lennon, when I grow up I just want to be happy. I love when I make people laugh. Friends have noted that is what they remember about me. I even got the crying/laughing emoji as a Christmas present. I post things all day just trying to laugh my day away.

I find myself posting and writing a lot about my recovery. I find that it is actually the most effective form of accountability for me. Sure I am accountable to my people, but I have also failed them on many occasions before. Since I have brought my recovery to social media, it has changed my game entirely. If I fail now it will be on a world stage. I don’t know if my Leo ego could allow it.

So for that, I will not apologize. I will live my recovery loud and proud. I will no longer apologize for being myself out of fear of what someone may think. I’m almost 40 and I’ve lived this long without Daddy’s approval. My inner rebel is quite amused.